The heart is a muscle,
and the nerves are electric.
Through this ongoing bustle,
the world skews geometric,
Continue reading “The Heart is a Muscle”and the nerves are electric
The heart is a muscle,
and the nerves are electric.
Through this ongoing bustle,
the world skews geometric,
Continue reading “The Heart is a Muscle”They’re understanding.
They’re meeting.
They’re chatting.
They’re laughing.
They’re liking.
They’re understanding.
They’re leaning.
They’re kissing.
They’re goodbye-ing.
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Manuscripts with their jolly and vibrant colors
There are more coffee table books
than happy memories
in that place.
Manuscripts with their jolly and vibrant colors,
begging those who pass time on the beige couch there
to see, to read,
to look at their shiny, captivating images.
They are a distraction
from the stony silence
that envelops that living room
where very little living is done.
The home was meant to be
a shared abode
but, as fate would have it,
not by the two
who dreamed to drape themselves
in blankets of familiarity
and ease–
Those who thought they would find comfort
in the chest of the other.
One book on the table features pictures of nature,
images of green spring days,
of places to go to be at peace.
On the cover is a blooming clover field,
the type made for rest,
blooming with flowers
that call to the bees.
On the day one moved out,
taking those books on their way,
very little else changed.
The other stayed, as did the couch
as did the silence.
The one left to live there
and to find someone new to share this home with
sometimes still dreams of those clover fields
featured on the nature book cover,
hoping next time won’t be
so luck-less.
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Way back then, I asked you to stay.
Just know that I am sorry, okay.
I think that perhaps I want more.
It was just days ago I asked you to stay.
Way back then, I desired that most.
The rain didn’t lightly sprinkle; it poured.
And I realized umbrellas just aren’t enough
as the winds all around me snarled and roared.
I wanted a shelter, I wanted a host.
What do you know about flowers?
“Do you think that flowers know that they’re beautiful?” she asks, in the middle of folding laundry. The bleached white towels stand in contrast to the navy blue comforter on the bed. Her folds are crisp, even, perfect. Her eyes flick up from her work, meet mine, and hold there.
I stand stark still, like prey hoping that its predator will move on. Her eyes continue to pierce into my soul. She will not move on.
“Do you think roses know that they symbolize love or that daisies know that we count their petals to steel ourselves from potential heartbreak?”
The words cling to the air, then expand, filling the whole room with their stifling presence. There’s a moment’s pause as we stand there, eyes locked, surrounding by the agony of her inquiries.
Then she breaks her gaze, looks back down at the towels, and starts to fold once more. “Do you think that when flowers are cut from their plants they know that some of them will end up on top of graves, showing the dead that humans still care?”
“I don’t think so,” I mumble in reply, grabbing a nearby towel and starting to fold, albeit much less expertly than her. “I don’t think so.”
How was I supposed to realize?
Even after all these years,
I still find myself thinking about you.
How was I supposed to realize
that the cool touch of your hand in mine
would sear itself into my memory
as if it were the scar
of a thousand icy fires?
Or that your lips that told
of hopes and dreams for a better future–
not just for yourself, but for the whole world–
would be so intoxicating and unforgettable
when pressed against mine?
I have made several mistakes
since that touch, that kiss,
one of which was
letting you go
without an explanation.
Now I am left with the memory
and an apology that seems
too thin, too late, and too quiet
to be of any real benefit
to you.
And I know that everything I said and did
gives you no reason to trust me,
to even listen to me,
but I do have just one question:
Do you still think about me, too?
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